Perhaps this would be a good place to talk about faith for just a moment. Most
people think that faith is some far out thing. Others think it is just a
concept. Still others think it is an emotional thing.
Faith is a relationship with someone and a trust in them. Can you see why
putting your faith in anyone (no matter how knowledgeable, how seemingly nice,
or how credentialed they might be) means not putting your faith in God.
The relationship with God, that I call faith, means looking
to intuition first. It is an involvement with the inner Light. Like a little
child who holds his daddyís hand and who looks to daddy whenever he has a
question or concern about anything, the soul looks inward with a silent plea or
This involvement is not an emotional one. It is mental and
spiritual. It is an attitude of looking to God, of ever checking the rightness
of things, and ever wanting to be guided to do the right thing.
Perhaps the best ways to describe faith is by pointing out what it is not. What
most people think of as faith is an emotional involvement with words, objects or
people. It is the involvement of the ego with whatever or whoever gives it faith
in itself and makes it feel good about itself.
This involvement is emotional, physical and imaginal. For
example, we get involved with some person (lover or leader) who appeals to our
ego. We have an emotional attachment to them, they make us feel, and we toy with
them in our imagination.
We become sensitive to their physical presence, which stirs
us to feelings. Of course, the feelings associated with being in love come to
mind. It is obvious how the lover appeals to something we want for our ego.
We are also stirred by the excitement that a speeding car
represents, a soft luxurious coat, or a fancy piece of jewelry. They stand for
somethingópower, party time, excitement, self righteousness, luxury, and so on.
A person can also get excited over words or over knowledge. Just about anything
that holds out a promise of glory, greatness, worship, or even the hope of a
cure can make us excited and emotional. People who look to medicine to save them
can become excited over the latest operation or a new experimental medicine that
holds out the possibility of a cure.
A leader or lover appeals to our ego, offering it something,
and we will begin to get involved with them, and soon we even have a fantasy
relationship with them.
Itís only a small stretch to see how someone we hate also
involves us with emotions and fantasy. The one we hate gives us feelings of
judgment and powerful anger feelings. We judge them, and the feelings of anger
or unhappiness, support our ego in its role as judge.
Hereís a cute story that illustrates the relationship aspect
of faith. A little boy was standing by the curb. A business man came along and
asked: ďWhy are you standing here?Ē Iím waiting for the bus, said the boy. The
business man chuckled and said, I hate to tell you, but this is not a bus stop.
After a few more attempts by the businessman to dissuade him, the boy announced:
I have faith that this is a bus stop.
The business man shook his head and began to walk away.
As he was walking away, he heard the sound of bus brakes
behind him. He turned and saw a big bus stopping for the boy.
As the boy was getting on the bus, he turned to the
businessman and said: You see, Mister, the bus driver is my dad.Ē
Faith is a relationship for better or worse. When we put our
faith in what we know we know deep down, we are permitting the Light of Truth to
enter, and we are involving ourselves with the Spirit of Truth. We yearn for it
and we welcome Godís involvement in our life. In exchange for our yearning and
trust, He helps us to change for the better and wordlessly guides us.
Itís not an emotional thing, itís a deep soul yearning and turning to God. Itís
an inclination of the soul. Itís obedience and a willingness to follow through
with what we realize is right.
It leads to realizations and private revelations that give us more and more good
reason for the way we are going. The good that we see happening all around us is
the evidence of the faith we had, which was the substance of things not seen and
not yet made.
Indeed, the quiet faith does lead to a change in our physical
being, evidenced by the happy sad emotion of repentance that purges us of error.
We also have a quiet excitement over our discoveries, a joy, and a peace of mind
that we cannot give ourselves. More often than not, real faith is trusting in a
silent knowing, what we know deep down in our hearts.
One mother will coldly and ambitiously send her child off to
godless preschool or school where the child is taught and bullied by strangers
and conformed to peers.
Another mother will hear the cries of her child the first day she
sends the child off to spend the day with strangers. But she will doubt her
heart ache, ignore her intuition and believe and have faith in strangers and
experts. Hardening her heart, she pushes the child onto the school bus anyway.
Another mom will heed her wordless intuition and clasp her child
close to her bosom. She will find a way to home school her child. This woman has
faith. The still small voice, the quiet intuition is from God. This faithful
mother may not know this, but what she does have is love for her child and a
willingness to do what is right.
It is said that the mind of man plans and schemes, but the Lord
directs his feet. But this only for the soul that stands back from thinking, and
listens to the heart. Despite the doubts, and though the whole world be arrayed
against her, the faithful soul does what she knows deep down in her heart is
But the wrong kind of faithóthe one most of us have--is a hypnotic
and emotional involvement with people, objects, words, or ideas. The ego
responds to someone or something that holds our some sort of promise or appeal
to it, and the response is excitement and an inclination toward that person or
object. The result is an emotional response, a trauma, a physical change, and an
imprinting of a memory. Emotion is the evidence of ego response.
The response is also hypnotic. It is a rapport that develops
between the object we are responding to and the ego. It is said that the Chinese
characters for crisis are a combination of danger and opportunity. An ego appeal
can be a promise of riches or power (opportunity), a form of gambling (danger
and opportunity), a hint of a naughty affair (danger and opportunity), or a put
down (danger to the bastion of the ego and perhaps a chance to prove itself), or
just pain physical danger (threat of death or injury).
The faithful soul is the one who is committed to what is right and
so turned to the inner good that the external teases have no appeal.
The faithless soul does not love what is right enough to not want
to leave the door to the mind ever so slightly ajar, so as not to miss some
titillating ego appeal. And when it makes its approach, the soul toys with it
mentally, which already lets it in. Soon emotions and feelings begin to take
hold and then the person acts on the feelings.
The hypnosis is the hold that the appealing person or object has on
the mind. Once the emotional bond and hypnosis sets in, thoughts and attitudes
are transmitted through the emotional connection from one to another, and
especially from the dominant stressor to the one who attention has been
Soon the hypnotized person may take on the thoughts, the mind, the
attitudes, the beliefs of the tempting stressor that are projected his way. In
short, the victim becomes identified with the dominant stress.
That is why the captives of terrorists often become loyal to those
that terrorized them. Itís called the Stockholm syndrome. That is why young
people, who are easily appealed to with idealistic notions, can come under
influence of a cult or cause to which they give their all, and from which it is
almost impossible to loose them. People become identified and loyal to their
pets, their team, even their drugs. The psychotic clings to what he has been
converted to for life, for hope, for identity. And when he finally sees that he
has been betrayed, he often clings to it in hate: going on hating it and unable
to give up his grudge against it.
Can you now understand why God commands us not to have any other
gods before Him? Whatever we make too important, whatever we give ourselves to
in love or hate, gains the power to rule us and we become its slave. Only God
gives us freedom. Anything else can only enslave. Even if it is a mere object
(we have resented or emotionally reacted to), it gains a terrible power over us
even in our mind. An object cannot set you free. Even if anotherís intent is not
to enslave you (though often it is, because that is how they gain power over
you), there is the enslavement in the mind: the obsession, the memory, the
The only way to become free is to regret your making something too
important and forgetting about your Creator. See what has happened, donít resent
your enslavement, and let go of the hate and resentment.
The ultimate hold that things have over us stems from our own
stubbornness. Something we donít want to admit, something we still look to it
for, or a resentment that keeps us trying to win, prove something, or get even.
By standing back, we let go. Look at it this way: if something in
the past keeps haunting you, there must be something that gives it a power over
you. Remember, we said that the stubborn ego actually uses the memory to
struggle with and hide in. The stubborn ego does not want to acknowledge
dependence on God and submit to God. A complete reliance on, trust in,
attachment to and loyalty to the Creator results in disinterested mental
distance. But the unrepentant ego moves toward the person or object or notion
that is appealing to it. Some sort of continuing desire, resentment,
unforgiveness, or hope keeps the attached and enslaved. Think of it! The ego
actually enslaves itself to something in order to avoid God.
People and objects lose power over us when we stand back and no
longer want their lies and no longer want anything from them. By standing back,
we move closer to the Creator and farther from the creature.
Now, getting back to whatever it is that still has a hold on you
from the past. There has to be a continuing hold of some sort. Whatever it was
that first enticed you to leave your first estate and venture into the world of
beasts and drugs is long gone. What is it that now, at this very moment, keeps
the attachment, memory and rapport alive? There has to be a present day
something, involving the will--something you donít want to admit or something
you donít want to let go of that keeps the attachment alive.
Often it is something that we still want (power, money, respect, a
happy home, or appreciation) that we just donít want to let go of. We think back
to the past where it was denied us, and we still want and resent not getting it.
It can also be something we donít want to admit: that mom didnít
love you, that you failed your child, that have failed in business. Not wanting
to admit that this is true, you resent and struggle with the idea. But it keeps
coming back to haunt you. If it suddenly became unimportant to you, it would
lose energy and go away.
Another factor is trying to make up for the loss we experienced in
that moment when we think we lost respect, love, success or whatever. The memory
of that moment comes to mind, we resent it, and then we are energized to strive
and struggle to prove ourselves.
The present moment factor that keeps the enslavement going is most
likely a form of stubbornness: resentment (conscious stubbornness) or
repression, anger, suppressed hostility (which are often unconscious), or
striving to prove or obtain something.
Another form of stubbornness is an unwillingness to admit
something. As I said, it is often something like an unwillingness to admit that
you hated your mom, for example. This unwillingness to admit the truth keeps you
subject to lies and subject to having to serve that person in guilt. It can even
keep us tied to someone after they die. We are not able to be set free because
we wonít admit the truth.
Perhaps now you can see that the soulís unwillingness to admit that
it is wrong keeps it subject to Satan. Prideís unwillingness to admit wrong is
the ultimate denial, and Satan is able to use it to enslave us. Related to this
is prideís unwillingness to give up the tinsel trappings and false hope of
worldly success. The ego also clings to the hope of a cure. And when success or
happiness is no longer a viable possibility, the ego clings to distractions and
emotions that keep it from being bared to the Light of Truth which would
devastate pride and dash illusions. The entire world is enslaved to whatever
helps it deny the truth.
Can you see why a willingness to admit wrong and be sorry in our
heart is the key to getting better from whatever ails us and whatever has us in
The principle of standing back and observing, with a sincere
willingness lay down the life of pride will eventually set you free from
everything. As a matter of fact, the very act of meditation combined with a
willingness to admit wrong and to know the truth, regardless of the
consequences, is already salvation. After this beginning, there will be a long
period of seeing more and more wrongs and errors, seeing more and more subtle
struggles, willfulness, denials, and little attachments to words and notions
that support some sort of pridefulness. With each denial, resentment,
attachment, false hope seen and let go ofóone is progressively freer.
Do you now understand what Christ meant when He said we must lay
down the ego life and take up the spiritual life? Can you see what Paul meant
when he said: I die daily? He meant that each day he lets go of that which
maintains the ego life of pride apart from God.
Bear in mind that resentment and judgment are the most subtle and
insidious sustainers of pride. The ego life, to a large extent, consists of a
secret fantasy life of judging others and resenting our luck and lot in life.
Can you see how the ego uses knowledge of good and knowledge of evil to make
judgments about others? Can you see how resentment can maintain a whole ego life
built around some incident that we keep resenting and which sustains the pride
to keep living in hate?
Can you see how the devil himself was traumatized by his hatred of God and good,
and now lives on informally hating over and over again anything good?
Can you now see why we must not resent anyone or anything? If you
do, you are likely to Can you now see how an appealósometimes extremely subtle,
such as a little come on or a hint of meanness, can cause something to enter the
mind? And then, toying with the notion, the victim can then search out more
experience to find out if there is more there, to be sure about something, or to
struggle with it?
Once a suggestion enters, we often keep toying with it. If itís
negative, we try to find a way to defeat it or counter it. The victim may get so
involved that he or she may spend a lifetime trying to disprove it. Often the
victim is converted over to the notion, if he or she cannot find the way to
completely disprove it.
The emotionally and hypnotically and traumatically created follower
or believer is a mindless slave of the cause, cult or idea. Completely converted
over, through the trauma of emotional belief, the victim becomes a rabid
groupie. Islamic terrorists, follower of Hitler or various causes are among this
group. The fanatic can also be converted over to an otherwise true or good idea.
Environmentalism, concern for animals, or a noble religion like Christianity
have both reasonable and commonsensical adherents, as well as hypnotic fanatics.
The fanatics give the cause a bad name.
Once again, the faith that stems from involvement with people,
objects, words, or imagination is emotional hypnotic. It is ego involvement
based on emotional response to an ego appeal.
The true faith in God is unemotional. It is based on awareness,
whereby the soul stands back from experience and observes calmly and neutrally
from a little distance. In the Light of Truth, the soul sees the fatal appeal
and shrinks from it without reacting, without assenting or rejecting. It remains
distant and impervious.
Standing in the Light, the souls sees in the Light. Remember, the
analogy I gave earlier about how love is not looking into each others eyes, but
together both looking at the sunset.
A little child will not be afraid to investigate a noise in the
dark if he is holding his daddyís hand and together they get a flashlight and go
When the soul locates the inner light (which it now knows as
conscience or intuition), loves that light, and wants to remain aware in the
Light, will then view things without being disturbed by them or being sucked
into them. Aloof, wondering in the light, not tempted to get involved or sucked
in, the soul is safe. The light reveals deception, and the soul does not follow.
The ego which avoids the shaming Light (because it is unwilling to
be humbled) is forced to deal with and grapple with things on its own. Being an
ego, it simply cannot help but deal with things in an egotistical way. It
worries, analyzes, decides, and falls into error. And because it is subjective,
it looks at everything for a mindset of what will preserve or promote pride. It
simply cannot see that the lying support or the offer thatís true good to be
true is in fact a lie and a deception. It errors, falls in love and falls in
hate. And it suffers from an ever deepening and enslaving involvement with
people, objects, words, knowledge and substances.
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