We are wayfarers in this world. But only because the human race has defected from the Creator. Without an intimate rapport with God, there can be no love—at least not the kind of love that is good for the soul.

   The love that is good for the soul is the Love from God--His life animating, motivating, and fulfilling us from within.

   But without truth, there can be no love. Love cannot operate by itself—just as the heart cannot keep a person alive without the lungs. We love others when we are truthful with them. But when you are truthful with others, it must be pure, without ego involvement. Similarly, we cannot love others by being dishonest with them.

   Remember, real love comes from God. Such real love may come through the human in a moment of truth, when the plain and simple truth is spoken without preplanning and without thought of the consequences.

   It becomes truth with love. And truth with love is what we all need.

   But if you alter the words to soften the outcome, or if you alter the words to carefully preserve some advantageous relationship, then the love is gone. What is left is a sort of truth without love. If you say nothing to preserve some cozy relationship, then you have an eerie silence, wherein the one who is most perceptive is intimidated and secretly resentful. Or perhaps both sides are resentful, and a game of one upmanship  begins.

   Without love, here are some of the results.

   Authorities without love become impatient. They pressure, cajole, motivate, bribe, punish, and reward to make their kids or students do their bidding. The reason they are impatient is because they have no love. Likewise, our ego does not have love. It becomes resentful and impatient with itself and the body.

   Remember: God is Truth and Love. Everything in the universe has an image of truth and love in it. So even a basic thing, like time, must have truth and love in it. For sure, we are aware of time’s love in that time permits us to have the space to live and do things.

   There is a great joy that goes along with a reprieve, an extension of a deadline, or a granting of pardon—we are given more time to live our life and do some something important.

   There is something ominous and scary about time running out: a deadline or potentially fatal illness hanging over our head.

   Time also has wisdom in it. All good things take time. There is a time and a season for everything. There is wisdom and order in the cycles, monthly and yearly and daily. The rising and the setting of the sun, the lunar cycle, and the four seasons govern nature with wisdom.

   The person who has love is patient. Impatience means that love and faith have run out. It means that we are no longer have trust in things to work out through time and providence. Suddenly we feel like we must make something happen. When we are parents, impatience means that we don’t have the faith and love to give our kids the time to unfold and discover naturally, in their own and God’s time and space.

   This change in viewpoint, based on lovelessness and pride, is already a pressure. Others sense our impatience with them and they begin reacting to it. They feel pressured, hurried, and sense something is expected of them on an untimely basis.

   Why do we feel like we are running out of time? Obviously, our life could be taking a real decided turn for the worse as the culmination of many wrong decisions. For example, our health could be failing. We also feel we are running out of time if we are reacting to the pressure of someone: an authority, boss, or spouse that is pressing us. When we have reacted to pressure from loveless authorities, we also transfer our reaction to something that represents the pressure source. For example, work, our job, money, or a goal can become the pressure source. It then hangs over our heads, making us miserable and robbing life of joy, even sapping our energy.

   Therefore, if you want to recover, you must learn to stop reacting resentfully to the presence and pressure of authorities.

   And you must also look at your work, hobbies, goals, and self-improvement projects. Some you will find are useful activities, but you have reacted to them and now they dominate you. Others you will discover no longer serve a good purpose and will have to be given up. Whoever is now making you react (possibly your spouse) is a stand in for an authority in your past (such as your mother).

   Once, via meditation and observation, you learn to stay calm and in your center, you will learn how to live and have your being in God’s time and under His gracious Mastership. The authority of your soul, mind and body will no longer be the world, and therefore you will stop being resentful and feeling like you are running out of time.

   As time goes by, diligent meditation and calm observation as you go through life will permit you to observe old reactions (holdover symptoms from a lifetime of reacting to the world) to be gradually eliminated. 

  It all boils down to this: We run out of time because we become separated from love.

   This separation occurred in the Garden of Eden for the whole human race. Since each and every one of us is a member of the fallen (from love) human race, a reconciliation and restoration is needed. This is what Christ came to make possible for those who recognize, love and believe His Spirit. Via Him, we can be reborn and become children of God.

   But in more basic everyday terms, you can see the truth about what happens to us when we become separated from love. How do we become separated from love? One way is resentment. Notice how as soon as you become resentful, you become impatient and nervous.

   Another reason we separate from love is because of ambition. As soon as we become ambitious, we become excitable and we move excitedly toward some goal in a hypnotic trance. With our eye on the prize, we miss the beautiful present moment.

   Look carefully and you will see that both resentment and ambition involve will. Adam had a choice: to do God’s will, or to disobey. Adam had a secret inclination toward willfulness. And when he disobeyed God, he became separated from God’s will. Worse yet, he became subject to another will, that of the serpent, which he had obeyed. It was the serpent’s will that Adam disobey God.

   When we are willful, wanting our will instead of God’s will, we have the kind of attitude that becomes resentful when things don’t work out quite as we wanted. In other words, we willfully resist the results or the implication.

   Look carefully, and you will see that someone set you up to be ambitious.

   There are basically two types of fallen humans, and we all fall into one camp or the other or both.

   The willful ones want something to happen or not to happen. And when they get what they want, they remain willful. When they don’t get what they want, they become resentful and willfully resist what they don’t like. Resentment is nothing other than a frustrated will.

   Then there are the will-less ones. They go with the flow and go along to get along. They may seem nice and easy going. If they are genuinely nice, then they are the sheep that the worldly movers and shakers use as shills, zombies and workers. They are the ones that serve the wicked head tyrant in the family or the nation, giving their life and all for their leader in exchange for a brownie button. They also become the guinea pigs the psychopaths experiment on. And the will-less ones become the cannon fodder sent to be slaughtered by the worldly leaders.

   If the will-less ones are not naively decent, then they are as treacherous as snakes, being easy going and compliant, they never oppose evil. Their see-no-evil approach permits evil to flourish. Under the influence of their relentless mindless niceness, a person can be transformed into a tyrant.

   Fortunately there is a third type of person, hopefully the type that you, the reader, will become.

   This person cries out for true answers, and begins to realize truth. Such a person yearns to do what is right, even knowing that he or she does not know what the good is. Giving up ambition and resentment, this person surrenders his or her will to God, because he or she really and truly wants to know and do God’s will. Without self will, there is no more frustration. And being a servant of the Creator, there is no more mindless service to other wills.

  On the way to this blessed state, the true seeker must first see his or her own willfulness: giving up ambition each step of the way, and seeing where he has been tricked into being willful and resentful in everyday activities.

   Each day, this person will begin the day with the proper meditation. By beginning the day this way, he or she recommits to doing God’s will. Then going out into the world, the observant person will begin to see many little occasions where unnecessary will is being exerted, even in concentrating or trying too hard. He or she will gradually learn the proper measure in all things, learning to work, play and relate to others without adding will to the natural flow. Life becomes more and more effortless. There is plenty of time, and the good just happens naturally.

   Remember: we are actually being willful and exerting will in a very subtle way when we are resentful. We are also exerting will when we are tricked into trying, concentrating or studying. A sure sing that you have been tricked into exerting will is when you notice frustration.

   Life is supposed to be effortless.

    It is supposed to be a flow. It is just not necessary, for example, to work up a head of steam to accomplish something. If you do, then the energy is wrong. If you see that your floor needs sweeping, then just sweep it. If you wait until you get angry, and the sweep it, your will is involved. If you resent having to do it, again, will is involved. The use of will results in misspent energy, getting locked into what you are willful over, frustration, and guilt. If you just can’t bring yourself to sweep the floor, then just don’t do it. Wait until you do have the natural gracious energy to do it. If you are meditating and are observant, you will probably see some resentment involved (from past reaction to pressure). Let it pass—then you will be able to sweep or not sweep, whichever is call for, without frustration or guilt.

   Humans walk in two worlds to the light of two suns.

   We walk upon the earth in physical bodies under the earthly sun. But we have a soul that should be subject to our Spiritual Sun. When we walk in the Light of God, His light shines on our path. And by our communion with the Good, we actually bring a little bit of heaven into the world.

   You see a little bit of it in children’s faces and hear it in their voices. We have all become earthy and dark through responding to temptation operating in other people and in our emotional imagination. We must refind our spiritual Source and learn to live from it. When you do, your soul will actually be just outside of time. You will observe the passage of time, but not as a part of it. Whenever we become ambitious, we reach for some material thing, motivated by what stands just behind it.

   And the more we respond to the invisible tempter who hovers just behind the material, the more we become subject to the material and to the will of the tempter.

   If you can learn to be subject to the Creator, then you will be the master of the material, and temptation will lose its hold on you. Identifying with the Creator, you will no longer be subject to the tempter.

   You will no longer experience time as a menacing thing, but rather as a flow of which you are the observer. It is like sitting on the bank of a river and watching it flow by. But the ambitious person plunges into the water and is carried away.  Time, indeed bathes and nurtures the physical creation. But when the soul draws near to God, it is actually just outside of time. It is close to eternal truth and eternal love. From its vantage point, it observes the temporal.

   Let the humble soul draw near to the fountain of life. Its chastisement will be brief. After that will come the peace of mind and the warmth for the body—these are the blessings for those souls who want to know God and who are willing to give up judgment and willfulness.